Internet Subculture and the JonBenet Ramsey Murder Case

A "Curious" Story
The Story, The Death, The Resurrection
As told in the threads of time of the online Forums

To Beanie (aka Curious) from ACandyRose

Beanie, I think you knew I had to do this section of my web site eventually. It was not something I could avoid but I am happy that I am the one who was able to document your story. I didn't know you then and I don't believe this was a hoax. Your "apology thread" tells it all and I know you have lived that day many times since and some people did not forgive and forget. That was to be expected. I hope people who look at this website and read what happened to you and how the other Internet posters reacted to your reported death that others will realize that they should take the time while a person is alive to say the caring and loving words they say after a person dies. You were lucky to be able to read and experience what others said. Since this happened I have went back and read many of your postings and I see a man that cares, a man with a deep heart.

"God Bless you Beanie"

A POSTING ON THE BOULDER NEWS FORUM FROM "BEANIE" (aka "CURIOUS")

A CURIOUS DEATH: Forgiveness... and On with Life beanie - 01:42pm Jan 8, 1999 MST Jameson is a Child Murder's XXXXX. Rot in XXXX, Jameson! ...Curious Curious ripped the hearts and souls... and innocence from some... when he was discovered alive... after his death... in the basement of Joshua-7. He'll never be forgiven for walking up those basement steps under my own steam. My point? JonBenet's murderer RIPPED the HEART out of the Ramseys... yet... within days... they offer forgiveness... and only want to get on with their lives. For those of you who have felt "loss"... how sincere does that sound? ...just Curious

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From AuntieBJ (aka ACandyRose)

I remember the first time that I heard about the death of the Internet poster who went under the hat name of "Curious." I was posting as a regular poster on a forum called the TVCourt JonBenet Ramsey message boards on America Online. Another poster named Matt Causey brought us the sad news on July 23, 1998 of a fellow poster who had recently died. I didn't even know him but I was sad. One of our forum members said we should all take a moment of silence in his memory and we did. Later I found the web page url that belonged to Curious and I went there and spent some time thinking about how the web page was still there in cyberspace and he was gone. I wondered what does happen to ones web page if you die and nobody knows your password. Does the web site just stay there forever in cyberspace? Curious had some Midi sounds on his page and one was the "Jaws" theme which I had been looking for. Later, one of the other posters in our group sent it to me. I didn't even know this man, never met him online, never even read his postings back then although I had heard his name before many times as a true defender for justice for JonBenet Ramsey. Then some Internet posters started to suspect that Curious was not dead because they said there were postings out on the old Joshua-7 Forum where he was a member that appeared to be a lot like the writing style of "Curious." It was ironic that here we were, all of us on the Internet following a murder case of young child where there was a ransom note left behind. We all had studied the ransom note, read it, re-read it, outlined meanings for all the wording trying to determine in our own minds if the mother of the child had wrote the ransom note. The reality of an individuals style of writing, words they use, letter formation brought attention to the fact that Curious was very much alive and posting on the JonBenet Forum under a new hat name of "Beanie." By the end of August of '98, "Curious" posted a thread on the Justice Watch Forum giving his apology for what had happened. He really didn't go into detail but briefly mentioned that the whole thing was a misunderstanding and by the time he was able to do anything about it he felt it was too late and didn't know how to undo the wrong so he figured he would let the "Curious" hat stay dead and he resurrected into a new hat named "Beanie" that he is still known under today. I have encluded a few postings on this page and other pages associated with this story from Joshua-7 Forum when the death was announced as well as the thread from Justice Watch and several miscellanious postings from my old TVCourt Forum. All information and Internet forum postings included on this site and the associated link sites are for historical documention purposes only to be included in the archived history of the Internet subculture surrounding the JonBenet Ramsey murder investigtion.

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A POSTING ON THE BOULDER NEWS FORUM

harmony - 09:05am Jan 10, 1999 MST (#38 of 39) Soup sandwiches, anyone? You know C, you make a good point. I haven't addressed your life, death and resurrection yet because I wasn't sure how I felt about it. Of course, as you know, I continued to email you after your "death." I felt as though so much had been left unsaid, I felt it was so tragic that a talent such as yours had been permanently extinguished. I felt my own pangs of guilt for all the nasty things I had said to you in the past, things I could never take back, nor make amends for. I cried as much for you as I did for me. It hurt when you died, it hurt so very much. I had gotten to know you a bit. I began to understand your soul and your motivations behind some of your postings. I discovered that sometimes the only defense a fragile heart has is passion. And then you came back. I had my suspicions after reading "Chris'" postings right before J-7 crashed. (Not Catnip) Then came your next incarnation, a hat I cannot remember at JW. Then we all discovered that in fact, you were still alive. I read Spencer's gut wrenching posts about never trusting anyone on-line again. I saw many of your friends express utter dismay and anger at you. I felt the pain that your resurrection inspired. I had a close friend die right after your resurrection, a young girl, by the name of Christina. The irony did not escape me. I wondered how anyone could treat death so cavalierly. And I didn't forgive you. My feelings were all mixed up with my feelings about Christina. I was so mad at God, I felt He had broken a "deal" we had had. (It's a long story) I was so mad at you, but I knew better than to speak to you in anger. I wondered if I would ever speak to you again. When we open our heart to another human being, we aren't doing it for the other person, we are doing it for ourselves. Of course, openess leads to vulnerability and vulnerability leads to the possibility of emotional injury. But without openess, we also cannot feel true measures of joy, love and compassion. So the gift I am giving myself today, my belated birthday gift to myself, is an open heart. I cannot say the exact moment I forgave you, it certainly wasn't days after your death. It has been months now. I understand your point about the Ramseys. I think we all do. Whatever your original motivations were behind your performance, an excellent analogy has been extracted from it. Every cloud has a silver lining, and every desert has its blooms.

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A POSTING ON THE BOULDER NEWS FORUM

china - 10:30am Jan 10, 1999 MST (#39 of 39) Dimmie, there is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. If you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and be lost. It is not for others to determine how good it is, nor how valuable it is, nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. There is no satisfaction in you. There is only a strange, divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps you marching and makes you more alive than some others. You must keep yourself open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open.

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A POSTING ON THE BOULDER NEWS FORUM

beanie - 03:44pm Jan 1, 1999 MST (#78 of 97) ... Jameson is a mindless, XXXXX, Ramsey Family XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (RFBHS). ... Curious Texass... Am I "out of control"... am I irrational? That's kewl. I just try to communicate me and my ideas. For me, it is difficult to express emotions via the printed word. Nevertheless, I try. Pablum is fine... but I like meat. I WANT people to know when I am angry... or disbelieving... or disgusted... or moved in more positive ways... else, why bother? I do the best I can to express my range of emotions in a print format... a format devoid of instantaneous feedback. I'm seldom successful, but I'll keep trying. There are times when only ugly words can express an emotion. Most are offended... it hurts. But I'll continue, as inept as I may be. I don't see much point in typing meaninless drivvel, or pablum. I want to VIVIDLY state my reasons for believing as I do, while pointing out why I cannot accept others. Radio is much easier. Face to face is best. ... Curious

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